Tuesday, July 24, 2007

The EX.

Not so long ago I used to be with someone like most people I had a boyfriend and like most couples do we broke up. Now things are kind of confusing we have started talking again and yet in spite being with someone else now we are acting like we are still the same. We have even took our relation to the next level we have almost slept together. I do not know what to do but I I felt extremely happy when we are together.. but somehow something was broken. In spite being together which is something that I want I felt like I was acting, did I do it cause I wanted to? or cause I wanted him to stay?
I hate what happened and yet I am glad that it got us closer.. I am feeling this thing will end soon and somehow there is nothing I can do except to watch it go down the drain.. Hoping that once in my life I prove myself wrong.. Would intimacy ruin what is left or selvage it?
I guess that is the million dollars Question
I am gone

5 comments:

Sou said...

Isnt it a bit excessive to sleep with someone to just make him stay???

Bliar said...

Nope it is not

Anonymous said...

i don't mean to judge at all, but do u want to be with someone who would only stay if ur physically intimate?? i can understand if u like being around him etc, but just ask urself if he's worth it? i know it sounds naiive and ideal (and perhaps it is :)) but he should want to stay anyways

Bliar said...

I want to be with someone but what if this is the only way that he stays I mean check out the relationships nowadays the intimacy levels has taken a huge step.. I mean most people are only acting within the boarder that allow the girl to get married to another guy if things did not just work out.. This is just looking out for failure possiblites dont you think??

Anonymous said...

Hi Bliar!

What I have learned in the past is that intimacy can never save something that is already gone. And breaking up and getting back together worked in one way only: eventually breaking up for good.

I do not want to seem negative, I do hope it turns out better for you if this is what you really want.

And I have to say I agree with Sarah. You should sleep with someone only when you feel like it, not because you have to for some reason (keeping him close in your case). I won't preach making love to you, you can have sex if you want to (truth is making love comes later, even when you're in love), but it should be what you want! Otherwise, it can suck big time and ruin it all for you, even if it makes it bright and shiny for him...