Is it normal??

I never understand it when I feel this way.. When I totally ache inside and I long to someone.. Is it normal that you yearn to a stranger.. To care about someone and just long to hear his voice to be in his arms and just be by his side without even saying anything or not having the slightest clue of what should be done.. You want to be around and yet you do not know what to say. Your feelings are overwhelming and yet you can not find this person or seem to be able to convey your message..

It is weird the affairs of the heart and how we feel some times..

I do not know but feeling like that is not healthy at all or God would have created us as couples to begin with.. But we are created as singles and I guess this is for a higher purpose more than just busting our morals.. Or just let's hope there is a greater purpose..

People are good until proven otherwise

My ass yes that is my response to the a/m statement, What is the big deal about being good anyway.. who said that we have to be good we just act like we are.. if not then why do we always grab the first chance and do whatever is wrong only when we are unseen. We steal, we cheat, we lie only when we are undercover. We have to look good while doing all God's given sin. It is weird.

Why don't we act like the SOB that is inside each one of us, who only pops up in the dark away from anyone in sight. Is it sort like fight club? We do whatever in the night to be able to sleep and wake up like what the world wants us to be.. Oh You do not you say c'mon..

Did you tell your GF about your female Friend who was talking to you recently? About the hottie you flirt with at work? About the extra money you have in your pocket? About the free time that you rather stay out alone than with your family? About the flirting you sometimes do to your best Friend's hottie?? There is nothing to talk about you say.. If you say so..

I am the last one to talk, I lie and hide how I really feel most of the time.. Most of the time I am in some other place than what I say.. Doing something completely different than what I should be doing.. Man would it be very bad to take the mask off,, I would never know cause in the end ..

I am just a liar..

The EX.

Not so long ago I used to be with someone like most people I had a boyfriend and like most couples do we broke up. Now things are kind of confusing we have started talking again and yet in spite being with someone else now we are acting like we are still the same. We have even took our relation to the next level we have almost slept together. I do not know what to do but I I felt extremely happy when we are together.. but somehow something was broken. In spite being together which is something that I want I felt like I was acting, did I do it cause I wanted to? or cause I wanted him to stay?

I hate what happened and yet I am glad that it got us closer.. I am feeling this thing will end soon and somehow there is nothing I can do except to watch it go down the drain.. Hoping that once in my life I prove myself wrong.. Would intimacy ruin what is left or selvage it?

I guess that is the million dollars Question

I am gone

The inivitable boring first post

Dear Blog,

Yes I am a liar and have always been like that but I did not have the guts to say it out loud, Why do I lie? Well that is for a lot of reasons sometimes for boredom and sometimes for getting out of trouble but somehow there are some parts of my life that are mere illusions I have waited my entire life for them to be true and they did not and so I made them up. Some times I lie to be on my own and sometimes I lie to feel good about myself..

Bottom line I am who I am, you can judge or read these lines and feel better about yourself Frankly I do not give two flying fucks about it. I have made this blog solely to be able to talk without any boundaries and that is what I will do..

Ciao